Thursday, July 5, 2012
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Rant of the day
So once again we meet. This time over my thoughts of family. Not my close nit connection of loved ones, but the ones would be close if things had turned out differently. I can't help, but think that if my aunt had lived things would have been completely different with her girls. I understand the ups and downs of life and I was nowhere near perfect when I was younger, but this is getting ridiculous. Drugs, sex, stupid ill though out tattoos, and unrealistic attitudes are not going to get you far. Don't get me wrong I love my cousins. I just had hoped for better for them. I stood by my cousin K's side through some crazy shit and I did what I could, but when it gets to the point when you only talk to me when you need something I tend to get annoyed. I didn't get much of a chance to be friends with the younger one ,M. I grew up and started my life far away from all of that I knew. Without Facebook I won't know what the hell is going on with M. Now this is the point that got me writing. M posted really stupid statuses. Mainly about drugs and sex. Well my mother saw them and I posted to M that maybe she should think before she posts. Well the point went right over her head and missed completely. What I really wanted to say" You sound like a fucking moron. Stop posting things that make people question your IQ." I didn't though. I just don't know why I bother. It won't change. Even if I try. She's just going to end up in the same boat as her sister. Single mother, baby's dad in jail stripping to pay the rent all while alienating her family more and more. Well I got those feelings off my chest. Thanks.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
It's been a long time.-Navy life.
I fell off my blogging horse. Like so many other things. lol. Life got in the way. Homecoming came and went. It was wonderful. No surprises there. I made it through my husband being deployed. Like the way I worded that? I don't want anyone getting their panties in a twist, but YES I MADE IT THROUGH DEPLOYMENT! Fuck you if you don't like the way I said it. Get off your high horse and suck it! lol I've read a lot of horse shit from a lot of different people.Who say that wives shouldn't say that. Well up yours buddy. You've not the one who has to do it. It's like people without kids telling me what I should and shouldn't be doing. HA! You'll eat those words. Don't hate on me, because I'm strong enough to be a mother and a father, handle the fiances like a champ and live without the one I love, while constantly worrying about where he is and whether or not he's safe. I'm proud of me and that's what matters. I have another one is store for me,but like everything else. I'll knock it out the park!
P.s. I didn't move back to Va. More on that later.-Mie.
P.s. I didn't move back to Va. More on that later.-Mie.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Peeves
Big pet peeve of mine: Using your kids to hurt your spouse/whatever by hurting the kids or putting lies in their heads.
If you have issues with them you should address them with the other adult. Not take it out on the kids. It's wrong and hurtful to all.
Another pet peeve: Not manning up and being a parent. You shouldn't have sex if you aren't willing to deal with what may follow.
If you have issues with them you should address them with the other adult. Not take it out on the kids. It's wrong and hurtful to all.
Another pet peeve: Not manning up and being a parent. You shouldn't have sex if you aren't willing to deal with what may follow.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Promises I made
When I became a mother, I promised my son I would love him no matter what. I know that there will be times when I don't agree with him and times where he will make me mad, but I WILL NEVER MAKE HIM FEEL WORTHLESS OR NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I will make the same promise to all my children when I have them.
My mother is an alcoholic. She drinks a whole 250ml bottle of vodka a night. Usually within a couple hours. I didn't know as a child and I hated her for it as a teen. As a young adult, I stopped caring when I moved away and started my own family. Now that I'm living in my home town just 5 minutes from my parents house, I have to deal with it again and tonight I snapped. She says stupid and hurtful things when she's drunk. Which she forgets about the next day because she's so drunk. Tonight after giving her her mother's day gift early, which I had to drive to bath and body works in a town 30 minutes away. (I spent 40 bucks on body wash and my sister spent $35 on hand soap for her Plus the lily bulbs I bought her at farm and fleet, $15) She calls my sister up and tells her she feels cheated because we gave my dad his fathers day/birthday gift too and that she's pushed and pushed and has had no help from us. She's dead serious about it too. We gave my dad 2 lawn mower seats. They were on sale and we each bought one.($34&$37) Really mom? FUCKING REALLY? His birthday is June 11th and hers is June 17th. Now I believe in buying shit when it's on sale. So since we didn't know which seat he wanted and they are usually over $100. We both got him one. Now I had every intention of getting her a birthday present closer to her birthday. We normally get her flowers, a card and a gift on her birthday. The works. Maybe in her drunken state she forgot that. I don't know. I know when I called her back after my sister told me what she said. I was livid and I tried really hard at first not to yell or curse, but at the end of her denying she was drunk and telling me to stop calling her actions complete BS, I was swearing like a sailor and telling her not to ever call again she that's what she was going to do. Then I hung up. I don't get mad often and when I do it's bad. I have bloody hot Irish anger.
Why'd it bothered me so much? She once said my birthday wasn't as important as my sisters and had said numerous times when I was a child that I was my dad's to take care of. She constantly made me feel worthless when I was younger. It took me a long time not to feel that way. Moving over 1000 miles away was the only thing that made our relationship better. The fact that I didn't have to deal with her drunk ass every night. I have no problem with the sober her. I do love her, but I will never understand her need to get drunk and fuck everything up.
It just really pisses me off. I recently bought them a new computer, Microsoft student, and printer, because she really needed a new one for her schooling. I borrowed them $750 for a new tractor/lawnmower. I gave both my parent $100giftcard for Christmas last year and the year before I bought them a brand new expensive grill on top of giving my mom money for it too. My sister is constantly loaning her money or otherwise she'll spend money they don't have. When we had my son's birthday party at her house. I helped out and THANKED her profusely afterward for all her help. My dad just had double knee surgery and I've called every time she's asked me to and done everything she's asked me too. I'm taking him to a couple doctors appointments this week for her since she has to work. Nothing is good enough for her. I know mow that my anger has lessened. I shouldn't have lost my temper, but after everything I've done for her and everything my sister has done, I don't think what she said was warranted. I don't like to bitch very often but every once in a while. I just have to let it out. I never want my kids to think that they aren't good enough and that i don't car about them Especially over material things. I'm not really big on hallmark holidays anyways, I'm a mom and I don't care if I get anything from anyone for it. I'm just happy for my son's love.
My mother is an alcoholic. She drinks a whole 250ml bottle of vodka a night. Usually within a couple hours. I didn't know as a child and I hated her for it as a teen. As a young adult, I stopped caring when I moved away and started my own family. Now that I'm living in my home town just 5 minutes from my parents house, I have to deal with it again and tonight I snapped. She says stupid and hurtful things when she's drunk. Which she forgets about the next day because she's so drunk. Tonight after giving her her mother's day gift early, which I had to drive to bath and body works in a town 30 minutes away. (I spent 40 bucks on body wash and my sister spent $35 on hand soap for her Plus the lily bulbs I bought her at farm and fleet, $15) She calls my sister up and tells her she feels cheated because we gave my dad his fathers day/birthday gift too and that she's pushed and pushed and has had no help from us. She's dead serious about it too. We gave my dad 2 lawn mower seats. They were on sale and we each bought one.($34&$37) Really mom? FUCKING REALLY? His birthday is June 11th and hers is June 17th. Now I believe in buying shit when it's on sale. So since we didn't know which seat he wanted and they are usually over $100. We both got him one. Now I had every intention of getting her a birthday present closer to her birthday. We normally get her flowers, a card and a gift on her birthday. The works. Maybe in her drunken state she forgot that. I don't know. I know when I called her back after my sister told me what she said. I was livid and I tried really hard at first not to yell or curse, but at the end of her denying she was drunk and telling me to stop calling her actions complete BS, I was swearing like a sailor and telling her not to ever call again she that's what she was going to do. Then I hung up. I don't get mad often and when I do it's bad. I have bloody hot Irish anger.
Why'd it bothered me so much? She once said my birthday wasn't as important as my sisters and had said numerous times when I was a child that I was my dad's to take care of. She constantly made me feel worthless when I was younger. It took me a long time not to feel that way. Moving over 1000 miles away was the only thing that made our relationship better. The fact that I didn't have to deal with her drunk ass every night. I have no problem with the sober her. I do love her, but I will never understand her need to get drunk and fuck everything up.
It just really pisses me off. I recently bought them a new computer, Microsoft student, and printer, because she really needed a new one for her schooling. I borrowed them $750 for a new tractor/lawnmower. I gave both my parent $100giftcard for Christmas last year and the year before I bought them a brand new expensive grill on top of giving my mom money for it too. My sister is constantly loaning her money or otherwise she'll spend money they don't have. When we had my son's birthday party at her house. I helped out and THANKED her profusely afterward for all her help. My dad just had double knee surgery and I've called every time she's asked me to and done everything she's asked me too. I'm taking him to a couple doctors appointments this week for her since she has to work. Nothing is good enough for her. I know mow that my anger has lessened. I shouldn't have lost my temper, but after everything I've done for her and everything my sister has done, I don't think what she said was warranted. I don't like to bitch very often but every once in a while. I just have to let it out. I never want my kids to think that they aren't good enough and that i don't car about them Especially over material things. I'm not really big on hallmark holidays anyways, I'm a mom and I don't care if I get anything from anyone for it. I'm just happy for my son's love.
Friday, April 29, 2011
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