Thursday, March 31, 2011

Day 27

a song that you wish you could play

Day 26

a song that you can play on an instrument
on the recorder!!!!lol

day 25

a song that makes you laugh

Day 24

a song that you want to play at your funeral

Deployment:Heart Ache

It's been 94 days since I held him in my arms. 94 days of wishing and wanting.  Months, weeks, hours, minutes, and seconds of slight doubts, prayers, and holding everything back.  I keep the house clean and tidy. I keep our son healthy and happy. I hold back the tears as much as I can when something reminds me of him. I've become everything that I have to be. I adapt and this is only the beginning of it all. I feel the pull like a child tugging  on my sleeve. I miss him. It's starting to wear at my resolve. I won't let it win, but I know it will shape me like the ocean beating on the shores. I will become stronger and better at it as time goes on, but right now. It aches and tugs at my heart. 94 days and I feel it now. not just the lust and anger. It's a slight sweet sorrow. That I'm sure like all else will pass.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Over kill.

 




                                               A song you hear often on the radio.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Me.

Day 15 - a song that describes you

Life; Credit where credit is due.

Do you ever feel like some people forgot you grew up? You've been living this pretty awesome life for sometime now and hell, you're happy.  Granted yeah. Deployment sucks and yeah. You miss your husband so bad sometimes everything makes your heart ache, but its worth it. Raising a kid pretty much on your own isn't fun, but it's a choice you made when you said I do. . Sometimes I feel like the family I don't see very often, because I grew up, moved, got married and started a family, still treat me like I'm 16. Granted they haven't spent that much time with me since I was that age, but I'm not 16 anymore.  I'm 25.  That's 9 years of lessons very much learned and to be honest my marriage is stronger and a hell of a lot happier then most people I know.  I don't rub that fact in to anyone that I know, because a lot of them are having problems whether they admit it or not.  I'm not the kind of person that says "Well, Na Na Na Na!" or "Maybe you should work on that"  It's not my place. The condescending tones and glances that I some times  are get frustrating and annoying.  Now. I'm not saying that I know everything. Far from it, but I've done extremely well for myself and give credit where credit is due. I'm not perfect. No one is. I just ask that you treat me like an adult. I can read, write, tie my own shoes, legally drink, vote and wipe my own ass. I've raised a healthy and happy toddler so far. I do my own fiances well and have a decent sized nest egg. I'm planning for more children and my marriage was built upon rock. I've made tons of horrid mistakes, but I've claimed everyone. I've learned how to love wholeheartedly and wean myself from hate. I think that deserves a little credit. I don't want a medal or verbal recognition. Just to be treated like I know what's best for me and mine. No second guessing or conversation behind my back about what I'm doing wrong. I've made it pretty dam far on my own and the future looks amazing.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Unexpected love

Day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love

Guility plesure?

Day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
 I couldn't really think of anything and wasn't sure what they meant by it. So this is a very dirty song.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Fatty McFattison: Fatty was sick

So I missed curves yesterday, but I prefer not to infection people. I was sick with a nasty Viral infection. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I feel bad for missing a workout but that's life I guess.

Hate

Day 12 - a song from a band you hate

Fave

Day 11 - a song from your favorite band

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Dance

Day 09 - a song that you can dance to

All the words.

Day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
 My husband and i sing this to our son as a lullaby.
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Least favorite.

Anything Kesha or Lady Gaga. They can perform, but they can't sing.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

My (currnet) favorite song.

Day one: Airplanes. by B.O.B featuring Hailey and Eminem

30 Day Song Challenge

day 01 - your favorite song
day 02 - your least favorite song
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Random

I got my new dress today and it fits fine. I bought it big now for 2 reasons. 1. being that the dresses were starting to be sold out and I didn't want to wait and have that happen and 2. It's easier to take dresses in rather then let them out. So with doing Curves Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday, if I loose weight. My homecoming dress will still fit.
With that in mind I need to buy a scale. To be able to keep track of all of the this. I also bought a nifty trash can for the car that hangs on the back of the head rest poll. I haven't used it yet, but it looks promising.

My totally hot dress!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Fatty McFattison: Curves review

Today went great. I got my sister to come with me to try out Curves and we both joined. We went through each machine and  learned about how to use each one. It was great I could already feel the burn! Granted I haven't worked out since high school. Well other then sex. Lol. I'll keep track of what I lose when it happens.


Lbs down: unknown.