Fatty McFattison: Curves

I start Curves Smart tomorrow. Gotta dig out my tennies and figure out what the hell to wear. I don't own "workout" clothes, but I'm looking forward to it.  Wish me luck. I'll be keeping tabs on here and blogging about it tomorrow.

Deployment.: uncertainty.

 I know how long my husband will be gone for. It's the after that part that continues to change.  I moved home for this deployment and our lease isn't up until November. My husband gets back before that, but when we first planned this out. It made sense to to move home, because they talked about deploying not too long after they got back. Now they are talking about waiting like 7 months in between.  I don't want to keep H away from Matt that long, but I don't know for sure about anything.  Matt doesn't know anything for sure either. I was another thing I didn't know would become so consuming about being a Navy wife.  We still want to get pregnant again, but you never know when that's gonna go through either. It would be nice if it happened closer to when he has to leave again. Plus these are thing yous want to talk about face to face. Not through email and short phone calls. Chalk another one up to the list of pros and cons of being a Navy wife.

Day 30:A picture of someone you miss

I miss my husband. Still got months to go.

Day 29:

- A picture that can always make you smile. That word always makes me laugh.

Day 28

A picture of something you're afraid of

 I've been bitten 3 times by these.

Day 27:

A picture of yourself and a family member

 My sister in law, me and my sister when I was pregnant.

Day:26

A picture of something that means a lot to you
My family. this isn't everyone, but it's all the girl cousins on one side

Day 25:-opps

A picture of your day------------------------------ I didn't take a picture yesterday and completely forgot about this altogether.

Day 24:

A picture of something you wish you could change: myself

Day 23:

A picture of your favorite book.

Yeah. It's a little young, but its a favorite.

Deployment:Sex deprived

 I don't mind sharing or listening. So if you are easily offend by sexual content then don't read this. I like I've said before this is my first deployment and I'm just writing the feelings as they come.  I miss my husband. That's a given, but lately I've really missed my husband in a certain way. That's right I miss the sex. SEX SEX SEX.  I've been wired that way  since I was young, but lately everything is dirty to me.  I need my husband to come home. Lets be honest there's only so much you can do on your own.  It's slightly unnerving sometimes and then I think about homecoming at what it's going to be like for both of us.  It's crazy how much you miss sex when it's gone and I don't believe in cheating for any reason. So I'm stuck waiting lonely and horny for months. This  is where I pat every military wife on the back and say we rock and I hope I'm not the only one.

Day 22:pearl stitch pearl stitch

A picture of something you wish you were better at.

21:Forget

A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 20

A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Interview You

If you want to play along:
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. (I get to pick the questions).
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Day 19:A picture and a letter

I'll never let you down,
or turn your smile into a frown.
I will care about you
and everything you do.
I promise to treat you right,
and do my best not to start any fights.

I'll be the best friend that I can be,
I'll stand by you, you'll see. 
I'll listen to you when you need to talk,
When things are changing quickly, 
I'll be your rock. 
This friendship promise is for you my friend,
to let you know I'll be there for you until the end.

Day 18

A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 17

A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 16: Inspire

A picture of someone who inspires you

                                                                       Inspiring Person

Would you be my Valentine?

Being that in the time my husband and I have been together, we have only had one Valentine's day together.  For some it's not a big deal and they don't care about that day in general, but to me it does. It always has. even when single. I love being able to express my love in anyway possible and a day dedicated just to that  it amazing. I don't care if people thinks it's a hallmark holiday or not.  Love is wonderful and girly things like hearts and flowers everywhere makes me happy. I sent flowers to friends that husband are also gone like mine right now and I know I made their day. Someone cares and that's a wonderful thing. Why hate on it. I'm hoping for a call or an email today, but if not would you be my valentine?

Deployment: undirected anger.

I don't know if there are stages to the emotions you feel while your loved one is deployed, but if there is I'm currently at undirected anger. I'm just mad. Not boiled over or burnt to a crisp. Just annoyed I guess. I knew this would be hard. I just figured I'd just be lonely.  Not angry at everything thing and everyone. I'm feel angry at my husband for leaving. I'm angry at the Navy for taking him and angry at myself your let him go. I'm angry at my family for the looks and the you knew what you were in for. The "he'll be back soon enoughs  and I'm sorrys" I know they mean well and I know they love me, but lets be honest. They have no idea how I feel. I love the help and I don't think I could make it through without them, but sometimes I wish I was closer to people that do. 

Day 15: Photo Challenge

A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 14:Photo Challenge

- A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

 my dad

Day13;Photo Challenge

Favorite band

Everyone loves savings

Day 12"photo challenge

A picture of something you love

Day 11:Photo Challenge

A picture of something you hate.

DAy 10:photo challenge

A picture of the person you do the most*********** things with

Rash: Shots

Should I be concerned about this?

Day 9:Photo Challenge

A picture of the person that has gotten you through the most. Yeah I know that's me, but it's true. I pulled myself through all the horrible things that happen. Yes. There we're others along the way, but I know it was mainly me that help me make it through.

Fatty McFattison:A start

I have had a horrible time telling myself NO lately, Luckily H has his doctors appointment tomorrow. Why does that matter? As soon as I have the paper work for the doctor filled out I can put him on daycare and have a set time to get to the gym. Simple, right? Well wish me luck.

Shoes: Gotta love them.

I bought these today

Day 8: Photo Challenge

A picture that makes you smile.

My 21st birthday Halloween party!

Day 7:Photo Challenge

A picture of my most treasured item........If it's supposed be a material item......oh well I don't really have one.

SUPERBOWL WINNERS BABY

PACKERS WIN!!!!!!! PACKER WIN!!!!!!!!PACKER WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........sorry, but WE WON!

 Bears still suck.

Day 06 : Photo challenge

A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day5:Photo Challenge.

A picture of my favorite memory.
I picked a few good ones. because I don't have a picture of my favorite moment ever.

Me pregnant shopping in Charleston,S.C with my friends and family

Shopping at the Cheese store in the Dells with my sister and husband 7 months pregnant.

The birth of my son


Ok thinking about it now I thinking it is the birth of my son. I thought of my wedding first but this wins out.